Tired

I'm a dad of two teenagers. I love my kids and my wife very much. I was laid off from work in Sept. 2009, I just got hired for a new job seven months later.This job is very challenging and time consuming but I'm starting to enjoy it. Back in Oct. of 2009 my doctor discovered that I have very low testosterone which is causing my blood pressure to stay out of whack, my cholesterol to stay out of whack, severe depression increase, and gaining 50 pounds with in less of a year. This intense weight gain is a surprise to both of us due to the fact that my job is "Corporate Wellness Coordinator" and I workout 4 to 5 days a week.

I am on so many medications to help with all of these symptoms that I'm starting a "mini" pharmacy. I'm tired of taking so many drugs and I'm tired of being fat. I can't fit into most of my clothing and exercising is very difficult due the "asthma". I really am trying to live one day at a time but my increased anxiety attacks and feelings of uselessness is beating the "crap" out of me. I really sometimes want to go to sleep and not wake up. This feeling contues to grow stronger every day; and that is why I'm dropping you this note. I've seen counselors in the past but I'm just to tired of going through the same "crap" again. Maybe I just needed to vent like I'm doing right now in order to help myself. So that my story if you want to drop me a line my email address is lawingfield@gmail.com.

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