I just dont understand, i feel so alone...

by Misha Caesar
(Dartford)

i feel down all the time, im never happy i feel so alone like nobody cares nobody wants me around i have nobody to talk to, all my friends are turning their backs on me one by one, i have nothing. i look at myself in the mirror and just see ugly and fat i hate feeling this way, i feel so angry with myself i sit in my room in the dark everynight and just cry until i fall asleep or i feel so sick. i hardley see my dad or my family my sister who i live with is going through a breakdown so doesnt have time for me my mum hates me we dont get on at all. i just dont understand i dont know what to do, ive had suicidal thoughts and im so scared its unreal, things happened with my dad that have done ALOT of damage more then you could imagine, he did things a dad should never even THINK about doing, but ide rather not go into detail unless you ask later on just please help me i dont know what else to do..