Camping in my head indeed

by B
(London, UK)

Hi,


I have been married for 8 years, been with my wife for 10, we have a beautiful 6 and 1/2 year old son. Last weekend on a business trip I met someone. I thought it could only happen to others until it happened to me. We spent long hours together and ended up in bed doing pretty much everything but have actual sex. But the kissing was very, very passionate. What I felt I hadn't felt since I was 16, and it wasn't so intense when I met my wife 10 years ago. Excluding last weekend, I have never cheated on my wife, nor have I expressed feelings for someone else.

For the past 3 days I have not been able to stop thinking about her. Shortness of breath, heart pounding, separation anxiety, all the symptoms are there. I feel bad about it and I want it all to go away. But part of me doesn't since falling in love seems to be the best drug available and its addiction quite uncontrollable. We agreed to stay friends "if we can", although I doubt I will be able to. She's 22 (14 years younger than me), and I know this is all irrational. Problem is we both really like each other. She doesn't want it to be anything else than friendship since I am married, which is good. Time will tell if we can stick to friendship. If we can't, I guess I will have to delete her number from my phone and never see her again. But life is short, and then again I am torturing myself every single minute about it. I am going on holidays for 2 weeks with my wife and my son. Hopefully this will help ease out the feelings. If it doesn't, then I am in trouble.

Many thanks,
B

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