A Life No Longer Broken
by Cathey A. Langston
My Life was tattered and broken as a child and into young adulthood. Being abused in every way as a child I felt useless, ugly, meaningless and worthless. Embedded in my spirit I could see no future for me, a young girl with no positive direction. I grew, was raped at 15, gave birth to a child at 16, dropped out of school. Became addicted to Alcohol and Drugs. I married at 21, had 2 more children and tried as best I could to nurture, love, and enforce the things I knew would benit my children. I wanted them to feel special. Get an education, and achieve at everything they did. They did. I am proud of that. I have had many tradigies in my life. Working through the abuse and Low self esteem so I could become something was a driving force for me.
In order to fulfill my dreams I had to overcome many obstacles. I needed help. I was powerless, confused and needed some true faithfull guidence. I found it one Sunday night in this little ole church, for there I met someone in whom I could trust to never let me down. WHO WOULD LVE ME FOR ME. Hw would never judge me for my past. He would help me. This mans name was Jesus. My life begin to change that hour. I felt clean, worthy and loved. And the remarkable thing was he asked me for nothing but me to love him. I am faithful because he has shown me unconditional love. What a change from what I thought was a reality of never being loved or worthy. I began to see that I was special, was smart, and could become something I really desired.
I'm 52, have 3 grown children, four Grandchildren and all of them are well adjusted, happy, and remarkable.
I started College last year to become a Alcohol and Drug Counselor. My grades are 3.75 to 4.0. I am happy. I love myself, and most of all, I am achieving my Dream!
Never think you are not good enough, smart enough, or worthy enough of anything you desire. Love is important. We all need it, and need to give it.
Everyone always ask me, "Why are you so happy"? I just say with a big Smile, a sparkle in my eyes, "I am Loved, I am Happy, I am at Peace, I am Complete, and I am made in the Image of GOD!